The last couple of weeks have been exceptionally hard. First- Jordan no longer has internet, post office service, or phone access. That means, we have ZERO contact with him. It's been 8 days since we last Skyped with him, heard his voice, and saw his face. For me, this is hard. For Layne, this is unbearable. Everyday he (Layne) gets a little more clingy, and a lot more whiney. He is terrified that I will leave him too. Everyone else can see that Daddy didn't leave him. Daddy is a HERO. Explain that to a 1 year old.
Second- As many people watched, President Obama told the nation that ALL troops will be out of Iraq by December 31st of this year. Everyone has assumed that that mean Jordan. As eager as I am to be excited, there is always the chance of transfer to other places... Afghanistan being one of those. I pray that my husband gets to do as the President says, & come home to us BY the holidays.
Layne is learning, so much. New words come out of this boy's mouth daily. I love it, and I love being here for every word, every step, and every new adventure. The more I think about how much I love it, the more guilt I feel that Jordan can't. Photos can only capture so much. (& I can assure you, I am taking as many as possible) Recently, we started the "time-out chair". Layne goes to the chair and I explain to him why he is there, and he must sit there without getting up for 1 minute. After I place him in the chair and explain, he looks at me so sweet and says, "I did bad." As precious as it may be, somedays its the icing on the cake for my little mischief maker. I wouldn't trade staying home with him for anything. He is the light at the end of my tunnel. He is the happiness in my day. He is my everything. God has truly blessed me with this little boy.
Two days ago, I took him to the park to run off some energy and "hopefully" capture some new photos of him for my Wall of Layne. ;) We had so much fun. Considering he is repeating EVERYTHING, teaching him new things is just a joy. From the trees, to grass, the rocks, the trash can, water fountain, cars, stop signs... the list goes on and on. Here are my favorite shots from the day, in BLACK & WHITE ... of course.
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| My favorite photo, EVER! |
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| Getcha Getcha Getcha - Life's simplest things. |
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| "I no want car." -Not wanting to go home. :) |
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| "Look Mommy a Yoggy Yoggy" (Doggy Doggy) |
These are precious photos and precious thoughts. I know the heartbreak of having your child miss their daddy and cling to you as if you are their safe harbor in a storm... because you are. Hold him tight and let it be a healing balm to both your hearts as you pray and wait for Jordan. And remember- I'm here. Even late at night. Love you!
ReplyDeleteMegan- You never cease to amaze me. I can't thank you enough for the love and support you have given me. I cherish you as my friend. I am overly grateful for you. I love you. Thank you. I pray you know that you can always call me ... no matter what. Love you!
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