Thanksgiving

This year for Thanksgiving, I decided to stay home, just Layne & I. I bought my first turkey, & all the "fillings" for the rest of the meal. I slept all night long last night, HARD. I was awoke to my phone lighting up this morning, for it was on silent. It was an unknown number, so quickly I answered. The voice on the other end of that phone was one I had only heard in my mind the last couple weeks, my amazing husband. I was too excited to cry & also still very much asleep. I sat up quickly and flipped the light on. 

He asked the usual, "What's new?". It never fails, I have a list of things to tell him and my excitement always takes over my memory. It didn't matter though. I couldn't be more thankful to hear his voice. We talked about the fact that Layne & I are staying home and relaxing. He wasn't thrilled. He questioned my ability to make an entire Thanksgiving meal by myself. Ha. Done. :) Saying goodbye was hard, knowing we wouldn't talk for another couple weeks. But, every single day is another day closer to our reunion, whenever that may be. 

I started and finished cooking in about 3 hours, not bad. (The dishes are another story.) Layne ate so much turkey. He really loved it. He kept saying, "Yum, good." I love cooking for my family and having them enjoy it. Layne is just to the age where he realized the difference between "yum" & "yuk". Hearing that he thought it was "yum" was rewarding. I took approximately two bites off my plate before remembering what Jordan told me he would be eating today, tuna MREs. (Meals Ready to Eat) Gross meals.

 Appetite gone. Guilt sets in. 

I miss him. I miss him more every single day. It's indescribable. God is good, & I am thankful for what we are so blessed with, but at the end of the day I go to bed without my husband. That is, the worst part. 

So many people have complained about how their day "can't get any worse" or they just "want to die". It amazes me really. I realize that there are so many things worse than what we are going through. My husband is alive and we are all healthy. I miss him, but it's not the end of the world. I wish more people would look at the things they do have in life before thinking "it can't get any worse". Food, family, shelter, health, happiness, jobs, love, friends, and most importantly GOD & our Freedom. 

"My flesh & my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart & my portion forever." 

-PSALM 73:26